He couldn't help it... He had to blog cuz he had no one he could talk to. No one who will actually udtz what he is going through... He feels that he has lost her in every way already... Has she finally decided what she wants?! She must have... From the way things look, she has decided that settling in a serious relationship is not what she wants... He waited for her today as he so wanted to see her face. He was eagerly waiting till she arrived and than...... She didn't say hi nor look at him eye to eye... Instead she was looking ard .... haiz........................ Than he thought of trying to create a conversation but ended up hearing things that made him even more upset..... She is like somebody's kept woman now though she doesn't realise it... But who can blame her, He can't give her the things she desire now.... Is this the sign that is telling him to walk away as there is no place for him here?! She said goodbye to him like he was just another guy she knows.... Is this how she feels about him now?! Why did this have to happen... They're not together but he feels it... Doubt she does though.... Is the plain old clifton not good enough?! Was Master Ng better?! He fought for her so many times, be it friends, family etc.... Trying to change everybody's thinking about her... But seems like she couldn't care as it seems like just another guy doing something for her.... Does she want him just as a friend?! Does she no longer love him anymore?! He feels like a fool when people stare at him and gives him that look as though , are you sure she loves you back....
ArghzzZzzzZzzzz.......................
His heart feels the pain every min... IS there too many guys in her life that he doesn't seem impt at all?! Well, he guess that what he told her before is true... There are too many guys who are successful enough to take care of her already... He guess that is what she is looking for... HE thinks that this is where he should take the farking hint and step out... Will she want him to go?! Will she stop him from going?! Does she love him enough to hold on to him?! As much as he wants to stay and fight for her hand, but its getting too painful... Sooooo pain sia... Tears roll as he sends every goodnight msg as it makes him think of her yet with another guy.... Who would udtz... No farking person will ever........
Do you know what i want
-->i want to love you & only you. -->i want to be loved back by you & only you. -->i want to give you evrything & expect nothing in return. -->i want only your loving care & concern the way you gave mE before.
+i want so much but it seems impossible to reach anymore+ Where do i go from here?! What should be my nXt step...
He thought after blogging,he might feel a little better, but fuck!!! The tears is still coming... i wish i could record this but i can't... record the screams as it hurts too much... Do i have her?
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I DO NOT EXPECT TO SEE ANYONE TAGGING ME ABOUT THIS POST!
thenbrownbearwould 10:30 AM
i would be
name: BeaR aka Master Ng
bday: 1st Oct 1985
sch: SchoOl of BeArs
likes: Sweet stuff
dislikes: Bitter things & people who lie to me
NOTICE !!! undergoing really slow changes to this blog!
