I want somebody to share Share the rest of my life Share my innermost thoughts Know my intimate details Someone who'll stand by my side And give mE support And in return She'll get my support She will listen to mE When I want to speak About the world we live in And life in general Though my views may be wrong They may even be perverted She'll hear me out And wont easily be converted To my way of thinking In fact she'll often disagree But at the end of it all She will understand me Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares For mE passionately With every thought and With every breath Someone who'll help mE see things In a different light All the things I detest I will almost like I dont want to be tied To anyones strings I'm carefully trying to steer clear of Those things But when I'm asleep I want somebody Who will put their arms around mE And kiss mE tenderly Though things like this Make me sick In a case like this I'll get away with it Aaaahhhhh....
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what can i say~ i read it, i felt it, now i wanna show it~!!!
thenbrownbearwould 9:33 AM
Sunday, September 09, 2007...2:28 AM.
After awhile, i realized what loves partly means and i would like to share it with the one i love most, in hopes that it might make things a little clearer for us...
- i love you -
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Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only what you are expecting to give.
Love is a canvas furnished by nature and embroidered by imagination.
Love is all we have, the only way that each can help the other.
Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.
Love is infallible; it has no errors, for all errors are the want of love.
Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever.
Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less.
Defination of love is juz You n Me...
thenbrownbearwould 2:28 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007...10:30 AM.
He couldn't help it... He had to blog cuz he had no one he could talk to. No one who will actually udtz what he is going through... He feels that he has lost her in every way already... Has she finally decided what she wants?! She must have... From the way things look, she has decided that settling in a serious relationship is not what she wants... He waited for her today as he so wanted to see her face. He was eagerly waiting till she arrived and than...... She didn't say hi nor look at him eye to eye... Instead she was looking ard .... haiz........................ Than he thought of trying to create a conversation but ended up hearing things that made him even more upset..... She is like somebody's kept woman now though she doesn't realise it... But who can blame her, He can't give her the things she desire now.... Is this the sign that is telling him to walk away as there is no place for him here?! She said goodbye to him like he was just another guy she knows.... Is this how she feels about him now?! Why did this have to happen... They're not together but he feels it... Doubt she does though.... Is the plain old clifton not good enough?! Was Master Ng better?! He fought for her so many times, be it friends, family etc.... Trying to change everybody's thinking about her... But seems like she couldn't care as it seems like just another guy doing something for her.... Does she want him just as a friend?! Does she no longer love him anymore?! He feels like a fool when people stare at him and gives him that look as though , are you sure she loves you back....
ArghzzZzzzZzzzz.......................
His heart feels the pain every min... IS there too many guys in her life that he doesn't seem impt at all?! Well, he guess that what he told her before is true... There are too many guys who are successful enough to take care of her already... He guess that is what she is looking for... HE thinks that this is where he should take the farking hint and step out... Will she want him to go?! Will she stop him from going?! Does she love him enough to hold on to him?! As much as he wants to stay and fight for her hand, but its getting too painful... Sooooo pain sia... Tears roll as he sends every goodnight msg as it makes him think of her yet with another guy.... Who would udtz... No farking person will ever........
Do you know what i want
-->i want to love you & only you. -->i want to be loved back by you & only you. -->i want to give you evrything & expect nothing in return. -->i want only your loving care & concern the way you gave mE before.
+i want so much but it seems impossible to reach anymore+ Where do i go from here?! What should be my nXt step...
He thought after blogging,he might feel a little better, but fuck!!! The tears is still coming... i wish i could record this but i can't... record the screams as it hurts too much... Do i have her?
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I DO NOT EXPECT TO SEE ANYONE TAGGING ME ABOUT THIS POST!
thenbrownbearwould 10:30 AM
Sunday, September 02, 2007...7:30 AM.
The Importance......
Here is a story to share...
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She used to think he was everything she ever wanted. But he must have let her down in some way and then he regretted. Now, this buy never regretted in the things he has ever done till now... What was happening?
Is there something missing? Than she used to tell him everything including little details like where she was going or what she was gonna have for dinner... Now she has stopped all that and starts to speak in circles....
Is this relationship ever going to turn out like he hoped it would? He keep telling himself day in, day out that things is going to change for the better, but does she want the same thing too??? Why won't she talk to him, why must there be a reason to talk? Why can't she tell him all that she feels?????????
If Only....... But it can never happen, so he stopped day-dreaming... What miracles can he do with those two hands of his? Is there something missing from the puzzle that they have built all these years?!
There used to be a myth about how a bridge was built with cement & little children's heads just so that the bridge would be strong... If this were to be true, must there be some form of sacrifice in their relationship too?!
Dazed & Confused? Puzzled & Tired? Sad & Petrified? What does she want? How does she want it? Is he not the guy she wants? How much love does she have for him? Is she starting to forget about him already? Has she found another?
He tortures himself with these ridiculous questions, but as much as he tries, it never seems to be in his favour... Can they eventually come together and really be ONE ?!
He just hope she knows that the love he has for her is still burning ! Will she help keep their flames of love burning ?
thenbrownbearwould 7:30 AM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007...11:28 PM.
This song seems so cute especially when you notice how the guy struggles between the one he loves & the one who needs him at that point of time...
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_____________________________________ If only all endings could turn out like that or even better than the word hurt won't exist,than there will be no balance in life..But if only there could be more endings like this than hurt won't be so hard to deal with...
thenbrownbearwould 11:28 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007...10:44 AM.
The Follow Up..........
This is a follow up on my past post....
Well i have been talking about my life most often and i guess i'm right back where i started... Still lokking for a job, still waiting for her... All this is going to get better one way or the other... I swear~!!!!
My Job ____________
I quit Lee Hwa Jewellery for a reason that no one knew. Some felt i couldn't cope, She felt it was because of her. Well... it was all me and no one else.. I quitted my job because i couldn't get my life on track properly. I could not balance well and ended up very tired everyday. I had to force myself to go to work and there were times, or should i say most of the time, i would end up taking a cabby to work... That cost me lots, on top of that i had a bad habit of wanting to go drinking just so i could see her. Stupid right?! There were other ways of seeing her. BUt i did not open all possibilities as when i went up to look for her, i realized that i actually still love her. So you see, the problem lied in mE this whole time.
My Love Life ________________
Well currently, we are still together as in not together as gf/bf but together... Things has gotten astray recently but i guess it must be me who is stressing on getting a job. I still try to msg her whenever my mind is at rest from all that stress. On top of that my dad is back and it has only been the first day and i cant take it from all his pressure on me... I still need to tolerate another 2 bloody weeks before he leaves again... Arghzzzzzzzzz............... Anyway, Jo-An & mE ...hmmz i don't have much comments now as we are now in the midst of working towards our aim of earning more money. Our love life, i might dare say it is still surviving as we have not given up hope on each other. *That is why i use the phrase "i might dare say" cuz tis is my opinion. i hope hers is just the same.*
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Well i would like to stop here with an ending that will let everybody know how much i still loVe her... And tell mE if you don't want mE anymore!
thenbrownbearwould 10:44 AM
Friday, August 17, 2007...8:31 PM.
what am i thinking?!
Is there a cure to this insanity?!
When can i patiently move in?! Move in to the place that i've long been waiting for... Nowadays, i feel so out of place from you. Is it because i'm not trying harder or is it because you're not ready to try?! All this keep running through my head though i nOe that the things we talked about should make me understand better... i do, i do understand but i just cant stop myself feeling this way... I want to tell you how i feel now but the words just don't seem to be coming out from me. I guess that is where i stay weak at, and i guess will most probably suffer by.
But apart from all that, i want to nOe how you feel, how your day was, what you had for your meals, did you do anything fun today? It may seem stupid questions, but ...i also don't nOe why... There should be a logical explanation to everything, but did falling in love had a logical explanation to it? I understand what our aim is and why we need to work hard for it. But along the way i loose track of what we've talked about and sometimes what our aim is...
The only things that is giving me that strength to still wait for our love to bloom once again is knowing you still love me...
Do you still love mE?!
thenbrownbearwould 8:31 PM
i would be
name: BeaR aka Master Ng
bday: 1st Oct 1985
sch: SchoOl of BeArs
likes: Sweet stuff
dislikes: Bitter things & people who lie to me
NOTICE !!! undergoing really slow changes to this blog!
