Thursday, August 09, 2007...5:07 AM.
i guess with each passing moment, you start to feel that you're not needed as badly as before... The tiny things you do.. The small thoughts you give.. The hugs and occasional kisses you share can sometimes be seen by the next person or can it?! Yesterday my my darlings 23rd birthday and i am glad she enjoyed it though i felt guilty for not being able to give her a better one... Even the things i planned was carried out by others who were faster than me... Oh well i got drunk which was not suppose to happen... Was very frustrated with myself though...
i guess there are times when i just wanna hear the appreciation, the love, the care & concern too... I admit i have changed from this playful being to a more dedicated one...But i am still in that process... Honestly, it is very hard... The days are just colder when she is not around. If a guy who thinks of a girl as nothing else but a tool can yet get a girlfriend, why isn't she mine to call my own?! Was the last time me much more fun to be with... The dominating and care n concern of myself better... Did the changes that i tried to do a waste...
When will she whole heartedly love me back?!
thenbrownbear
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