then i would

Wednesday, August 22, 2007...11:28 PM.

This song seems so cute especially when you
notice how the guy struggles between
the one he loves & the one who
needs him at that point
of time...

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If only all endings could turn out like that or even better
than the word hurt won't exist,than there will be
no balance in life..But if only there could be
more endings like this than hurt won't
be so hard to deal with...

thenbrownbearwould
11:28 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007...10:44 AM.

The Follow Up..........

This is a follow up on my past post....

Well i have been talking about my life most often and i guess i'm right back where i started...
Still lokking for a job, still waiting for her... All this is going to get better one way or
the other... I swear~!!!!

My Job
____________

I quit Lee Hwa Jewellery for a reason that no one knew. Some felt i couldn't cope,
She felt it was because of her. Well... it was all me and no one else.. I quitted my job because
i couldn't get my life on track properly. I could not balance well and ended up very tired everyday.
I had to force myself to go to work and there were times, or should i say most of the time, i
would end up taking a cabby to work... That cost me lots, on top of that i had a bad habit
of wanting to go drinking just so i could see her. Stupid right?! There were other ways
of seeing her. BUt i did not open all possibilities as when i went up to look for her, i
realized that i actually still love her. So you see, the problem lied in mE this whole time.

My Love Life
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Well currently, we are still together as in not together as gf/bf but
together... Things has gotten astray recently but i guess it must be me who is stressing on getting a job. I still try to msg her whenever my mind is at rest from all that stress.
On top of that my dad is back and it has only been the first day and i cant take it from all
his pressure on me... I still need to tolerate another 2 bloody weeks before he leaves again...
Arghzzzzzzzzz...............
Anyway, Jo-An & mE ...hmmz i don't have much comments now as we are
now in the midst of working towards our aim of earning more money.
Our love life, i might dare say it is still surviving as we have not given up hope on
each other.
*That is why i use the phrase "i might dare say" cuz tis is my opinion. i hope hers is just the same.*

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Well i would like to stop here with an ending that will let everybody know
how much i still loVe her... And tell mE if you don't want mE anymore!

thenbrownbearwould
10:44 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007...8:31 PM.

what am i thinking?!

Is there a cure to this insanity?!

When can i patiently move in?! Move in to
the place that i've long been waiting for... Nowadays,
i feel so out of place from you. Is it because i'm not trying harder
or is it because you're not ready to try?! All this
keep running through my head though i nOe that the
things we talked about should make me understand
better... i do, i do understand but i just cant stop myself
feeling this way... I want to tell you how i feel now but the words
just don't seem to be coming out from me. I guess that is
where i stay weak at, and i guess will most probably suffer by.

But apart from all that, i want to nOe how you feel,
how your day was, what you had for your meals, did you do anything
fun today? It may seem stupid questions, but ...i also don't
nOe why... There should be a logical explanation to everything,
but did falling in love had a logical explanation to it?
I understand what our aim is and why we
need to work hard for it. But along the way i loose track of what we've
talked about and sometimes what our aim is...

The only things that is giving me that strength
to still wait for our love to bloom once
again is knowing you still love
me...

Do you still love mE?!

thenbrownbearwould
8:31 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007...2:36 PM.

I can't compare to the better
ones that you have ever
met in your life... But you were the most
amazing girl i've ever met..

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credits to Trademark~!

thenbrownbearwould
2:36 PM

...6:08 AM.

This song is for my precious
though,
everyone gets to listen
to it... A song with meaning~!!!

I did not put in the lyrics as
i felt it would be appreciated better
by just listening to it~!!
ENJOY~!

thenbrownbearwould
6:08 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007...7:40 PM.

Couldn't slP at 10 in the morning after watching
NaRuTo, so what the heck...
try this~!! hahas..

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Instructions::
1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense.

How are you feeling today?

Things I'll Never Say - Avril Lavigne

Will you get far in life?

Ka Fei - Zhang Xue You

How do your friends see you?

Almost Here - Brian McFadden & Delta Goodrem
Will you get married?

Xi Guan - yang cheng ling

What's your best friend's theme song?

Bullseye Girl

What is the story of your life?

你很爱他 - FIR

What was primary school like?

Mcdonalds - Tai Mai Shu

How can you get ahead in life?

相信未来
What is the best thing about your friends?

Superwoman - Karen White
What is in store for this weekend?

Once In A Life Time - Sarah Brightman
What song describes you?

Helena - My Chemical Romance
To describe your grandparents?

Forever Young - Alphaville

How is your life going?

Liu Lang - Zhe Zhi Ge
What song will they play at your funeral?

ping zhong sha - Twins

How does the world see you?

Kiss Goodbye - Wang Lee Hom

Will you have a happy life?

Gai Shi Ying Xiong - Wang Lee Hom

What do your friends really think of you?

窗外

Do people secretly lust after you?

kiss night - Wiber Pan

How can I make myself happy?

Initial D Theme - Jay Chou
What should you do with your life?

Ai Wo De Ren He Wo Ai De Ren - You Hong Ming
Will you ever have children?

Brother Louie - Morden Talking

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Haven't add any commenTs yeT..
Gonna need some help with
Some oF thE Meanings..
hee hee~

thenbrownbearwould
7:40 PM

Thursday, August 09, 2007...5:07 AM.

i guess with each passing moment, you start to feel that you're not needed as badly as before... The tiny things you do.. The small thoughts you give.. The hugs and occasional kisses you share can sometimes be seen by the next person or can it?! Yesterday my my darlings 23rd birthday and i am glad she enjoyed it though i felt guilty for not being able to give her a better one... Even the things i planned was carried out by others who were faster than me... Oh well i got drunk which was not suppose to happen... Was very frustrated with myself though...

i guess there are times when i just wanna hear the appreciation, the love, the care & concern too... I admit i have changed from this playful being to a more dedicated one...But i am still in that process... Honestly, it is very hard... The days are just colder when she is not around. If a guy who thinks of a girl as nothing else but a tool can yet get a girlfriend, why isn't she mine to call my own?! Was the last time me much more fun to be with... The dominating and care n concern of myself better... Did the changes that i tried to do a waste...

When will she whole heartedly love me back?!

thenbrownbearwould
5:07 AM