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Monday, May 28, 2007...1:00 PM.

Time really flies fast. It seems like it was
just yesterday. As today is the 29th may '07, it is exactly
one month since we went together. But though today is suppose to be a special day, there is nothing to celebrate about.
We still did not get a chance to talk yet but i still feel it that we
should be together. I choose not to listen to others because i
only want to hear it from her. I choose not to believe what
anyone told me because i believe in the things we used to talk about on how we are going to start a new together.

I do not know if this is still a possibility, but evernight i pray that she will eventually know what she really want and just tell me. I am still hanging in the air but i'm hanging by a very thin line of hope. Were we ever meant to be. Is the love still as strong as ever?! No matter how much of pain i've gone through, i never once blame it on her as i know that when i chose to be with her and one day spend the rest of my life with her, i am willing to be in it together with her through thick or thin. I may not be able to give her everything she wants now. But i know that i'll never let her suffer. If i know i can never make it in life than i will let her go for she

deserves much more. And when i was told than love

isn't enough to build a relationship, i sat down to think what else did we need to build this relationship. Than it came to me that to build a good relationship, you need to build a base of friendship first. Then you step in love not because you have to but because you want to. After that it'll all fall into place with trust and sincerity. Love is really all you need. Unless the love is lost than ........i guess there is nothing else that can be done to undo the wrong and to praise the right. I guess you start to see a vision of the beginning when it all ends. But is it the end for us? What is most hurting is not to be able to be beside you when i need you. Were you really sick & tired? Did you really want to not be in a relationship because you were sick & tired or because you finally found somebody else? Nobody saw me as a person who could actually be in a serious relationship, But just as i prove all those who didn't believe in me wrong, I failed to myself. I was so excited in building up my career and helping you with yours all because of the things we planned together. Was there ever a doubt about my love for you.

| want to share my life with you. The good, the bad & the ugly too. Share every dream, share everyday for as long as we live & breathe, ok? No one compares to you. Now that we've met, no one else can take your place. | love you with a love so pure & true, and i know that our love will get us through anything. | know god sent you and that he saved you for me, knowing that | deserve the best & because you are that amazing, super wonderful woman that stands out from the rest. I've never felt this way before. It's only you i'll adore. Tell me to be yours and yours forever i shall. Be my queen & i'll be your king. Together, we can do anything baby.

Just take my hand & let's be together for life. You are the best thing by far, that's ever happened to me. Someday as we look back on all the pain & strife, it'll be worth it - all the hardships in life. Because we have each other, happiness that money can't never buy. An eternal love as endless as the sky.

- | love you -

thenbrownbearwould
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