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Sunday, May 13, 2007...6:14 AM.

A series of unfortunate events....

We are together but ppl still ask me is she urs?! Why is tat so...does it not seem clear enuff?! i guess not cuz if it was than ppl wun be asking such questions......Does she take me as the one she loves cuz frm the bottom of my heart i can say tat i dun feel it yet...Where is the love, where is she?My bro was saying abt the playing mode thingy...My bro knows me too well..but this time he is unsure cuz he dun see me as me anymore...wad i mean is i'm serious enuff to be with one that every other girl does not matter....i am not holding back anymore...there is no third or fourth party in my life anymore...But the question is wad does she want...?! She says that she realise wad she wans in life now...i wish she can share it with me so i can understand better... There is a saying~ Everyone can want to be with you, But how how many do you want to be with? Wad is a gf/bf ?! Wad makes a gf/bf different from the others...I'll reveal all here today.....Someone who u cant get rid of in ur mind, the one whom u want to spend every waking hour with if possible, one whom u can trust to be by ur side no matter wad, the one who will bring u to the clouds when all else fails, the one who thinks of the best ways to tell u of ur imperfection,one whom u can trust to keep ur darkest secrets when others cannot...the one who will commit all of him/her to u cuz deep down he/she will feel that u will nvr betray her even if u ever do. When u betray someone, tat someone may or may not forgive u,tat someone may nvr wan to speak to u,tat someone might even feel like hitting u. BUt all this aside, the most important thing is tat when u betray someone, u are actually betraying urself for the very start... Dear, Darling, baby, sweetheart, precious...all this may just be words but its words tat comforts, dignifies, puts the difference....actions speaks louder but words are like swords/arrows. it can hurt and it help... Like someone once told me, a piece of rock, if polished can become some precious stone. But an unpolished rock will always be a rock...So polish urself to outshine the rest .... there are times when i feel tat all this make sense and there are times when i get confuse.... Now the only thing that is clear to me is i've somwhow fallen in love and wadever others may say i'll listen only cuz i wanna build the trust ..w/o trust than a relationship is jus a lie... Bro's, mei's, jie's, kor...dun worry abt me yea...i know wad i am doing....changes in my life is a gd thing....My darling wants to work hard together with me...those were her words... Let me live this on my own,though i still wanna hear ur advices but this is just me and her... Thanks everyone for the support ... Frm here on, me and her have to work on the problems together...At least only then can we ourselves know that we tried and we did it.... Hmmz...i guess i have leave now for the bear needs food.... =)

thenbrownbearwould
6:14 AM