Its been 7yrs since he ever dropped a tear. yesterday that 1st tear drop and he was all alone facing the river of Singapore thinking of where he should go from there. What he should do. But nothing could come to his mind. It was all a blamk. There was no reason but advise which he didn't want to hear as he was already lost and wanted to be left alone. She was the gem he lost once and now he has lost her yet once again. Neither words nor actions can be used to describe him anymore. Someone called him with full of concern to tell him that there is other things in life other than relationship. But the problem is he has everything else in place except relationship. A failure he was. The hurt runs deep through the bloodstream and veins of his aching body. The words were cold and piercing.... Was there ever a doubt that this would happen?! Maybe he is just naive and always thought & hoped for the best only. The things they shared, the places they went. the wishes they planned.................. Some protested, some encouraged, some just stood by, some admired. Despite all this, he pushed on for something far better for the both of them. It like building something and when you loose the most important thing... the floor plan that holds the whole structure, What happens? Either you stand there lost or you have a back-up. In this case, there was no back-up, only her. She never realise how important she was in his life.... She was partly the beams of his whole life. The one that actually kept him going. He was strong even if he had no one by his side. But when he chose for her to come into his life, She did not realise that she naturally became the main pillar of him. Not being able to call or message her is killing him so much that he still tear as he drafts this. If she did love him, Why is this happening. She blames herself for all that has happen without knowing that guilt and lost is what he feels now as like nothing was ever his fault. Surely there must have been something that he did. All the people in her life, he did try but she didn't give him enough time before passing judgement. In ones life, one cannot spend too much time looking for love & career. Instead one should spend more time nurturing the love they might find & master the career that they might find too. She told him that he deserves someone better. Was that ever a fair sentence to begin with?! Yes, he will still live on. But with that hole that cannot be easily replace. The sore feeling still hinders and the tears still dropped. He lost the feeling of how a tear comes. And today he felt the pain as every drop came falling down. Its too painful..............
-Master Ng Will NEVER cry for another girl ever again-
