Monday, September 04, 2006...10:44 AM.
wad is happening to me?!!!!!!
wad is going on?! i have been working so hard everyday,
day in day out but all i get in pain....today right after my bro alvis
sent me home,i was sent to NUH by a friend who came by to see me cuz
i cough out blood and than fainted...wad the hell!!!!! i know wad i'm
doing but life is such that if u dun work hard now,than when r u ever
gonna start ! While i was at the hospital,i started to think,am i worth
it?cuz there is only 3 reasons as to why i am pushing myself and its not
that i blame this reasons . Its juz that i sometimes wonder is it worthwhile.
1 is for my future, 2 is for my family to be proud of me & 3 is to be able to let
her enjoy every outing with me...i so wanna be serious now but i dunno why i
recently feel that she may nt have the interest in me as i do for her...i may be
over reacting but i am juz too shy to juz ask...ah~ lets face it,i have no guts !!!!!!
does praying really works..haha..if she really is serious abt me as i am abt her,
maybe at least one thing get be lighten off my mind..i dun wanna play anymore....
i've had my fair share of play and being played with in relationships..nw i realli wan
it to work...i've move on...can she?!well i guess i will
just have to wait and see.... sayonara~!!!! =x
thenbrownbear
would10:44 AM
