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Friday, September 15, 2006...9:31 AM.

back at it~!

firstly, i'm sorrie for the video that is blocking part of my entries cuz i am still trying new stuff during my free time so yeah....anyway guess what?! i am now learning dances like salsa,cha cha and a little bit of ballroom...well i kinda like it but its mainly to help my bro in promoting the studio...so if anyone who enjoys danes like this juz give me a call...i would appreciate it~! =) my company is moving a little slow but i'm hoping it will progress. i'm working so bloddy hard to make the balance of my life worth living.hmmz...though many do not know but i have been drinking so much recently that i myself am shock too... i went to vie the other day but only one btl of beer ,but that was nt y i went to vie.than the day before that i went to bq and drank with yun they all and got myself terribly drunk for no reason at all...though i remember people coming over to me telling me that its nt worth it over a girl..i mean i've nvr got myself drunk over a girl so dun worry.i juz felt like drinking but it juz got out of hand and i realli am apologetic to those who had to clean up after me...than the nxt day after vie i went to bq again and drank when i had to drive and i had a bloody fine for parking against the flow of traffic..wtf~! i know i know...i wunz do that again.its unsafe and i will cause worries to alot of people if anything ever happen...oh yeah my tp is coming up nxt friday so do wish me luck yeah~! hee hee...hey huis like i said in ur shout out box,i'm here~! =]

thenbrownbearwould
9:31 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006...10:44 AM.

wad is happening to me?!!!!!!

wad is going on?! i have been working so hard everyday,
day in day out but all i get in pain....today right after my bro alvis
sent me home,i was sent to NUH by a friend who came by to see me cuz
i cough out blood and than fainted...wad the hell!!!!! i know wad i'm
doing but life is such that if u dun work hard now,than when r u ever
gonna start ! While i was at the hospital,i started to think,am i worth
it?cuz there is only 3 reasons as to why i am pushing myself and its not
that i blame this reasons . Its juz that i sometimes wonder is it worthwhile.
1 is for my future, 2 is for my family to be proud of me & 3 is to be able to let
her enjoy every outing with me...i so wanna be serious now but i dunno why i
recently feel that she may nt have the interest in me as i do for her...i may be
over reacting but i am juz too shy to juz ask...ah~ lets face it,i have no guts !!!!!!
does praying really works..haha..if she really is serious abt me as i am abt her,
maybe at least one thing get be lighten off my mind..i dun wanna play anymore....
i've had my fair share of play and being played with in relationships..nw i realli wan
it to work...i've move on...can she?!well i guess i will
just have to wait and see.... sayonara~!!!! =x

thenbrownbearwould
10:44 AM